This is me.

So, this is still blowing my mind. Tonight, I was told in a small group I'm in through my youth group that I look least like the typical person who was in the youth ministry. So...I had a unique look about me. It wasn't meant as an insult, and I didn't take it that way. It just blows my mind that my individuality actually shows through. I feel all the time like I'm stuck in the mold of rich, white kids, but I've realized I'm not. This is how I work.

I don't dress to impress. I dress in whatever way makes me feel comfortable and content with myself. If people don't like it, they can deal with it. I don't try to be something, I'm just me. And it's nice knowing that people notice that about me. I've struggled with becoming who I am now, and I think it's paid off.

Besides, the only labels that should exist are the ones on canned food.

Sunshine

It's a movie that has changed me. Yeah, it's kind of extreme for a movie, but it has. First, if you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. It's so aesthetically pleasing.

Anyway, so this is how it's changed me. Normally, I love cloudy, rainy days, and hate sunny, clear days. It's hard to get past the soothing sounds of rain against the roof, and just hear the thunder roar. It always gives me chills. But somehow, Sunshine has managed to make me love the sun. I was walking toward the school's stadium to watch my friends' lacrosse game, and the sun was shining on my back, and it was one of those beautiful sunsets. And I found myself whispering, 'They did it.', to myself. I look at the sun, and I breathe. I feel alive. So now I love all weather basically. How is it possible that the world can be so beautiful and broken at the same time?

So if you wake up one morning and it's a particularly beautiful day, you'll
know we made it. Okay, I'm signing out. -Robert Capa